Tuesday, November 3, 2009

It scares me to think that I've caused things to change between us.
It doesn't feel right anymore. It feels so different.
Maybe I shouldn't have said anything. But I couldn't put on an act.

I used to wake up to your text every morning. And that would start my day right. I'd smile to myself thinking about how lucky I was. I don't get those texts anymore. And I wait the whole day but I don't hear from you.

And when I do, it seems so superficial. I don't get much 'I love yous'. Yes,I do need that. Seeing that thats the only assurance I can get from being in a long distance relationship.Then again, I'd rather you say it because you want to and you mean it, not just because you feel you have to. You say you want to be with me and that I'm the one who put up the wall. But now it seems you're leaving that wall up. And you seem quite content with that.

Do you still think about me?
Do you still love me?
Honestly?

Maybe the trip wasn't the best idea. Don't get me wrong. I did appreciate you coming. But I guess things just didn't turn out the way we both hoped and expected. I did enjoy myself at times though, wishing the moment would last. Other times, there was just so much tension with my mom and stuff you did (which you probably didn't realise) that upset me.


'Now I'm trying to convince myself that I'm not losing you.
Why can't you forget the things I said?I was upset at that time but now I've cleared my head.
We were so strong,why did it all go wrong?
So tell me why I'm swimming against the tide,I'm praying for a lifeline cause I'm losing you.
So tell me why you don't seem to care enough to try.
Are you giving up this fight?I won't stand losing you.
What can I take to convince you we need more time.
I know I've made a few mistakes but losing you is just too much for me to take.'

Breaking the Habit!