Saturday, December 30, 2006

oh my gosh!new year's tomorrow!i am seriously not ready to start a new year..it stinks.i'm gonna miss mosh07 tonight!why?because i'm stuck in sushi tei taking people's order...i wanna wanna see charles lim!he's the bomb mann..
i had like a bad case of stomach flu on thursday.diarrhoea all day.stomach hurt like hell!and i vomited quite abit..because i didnt eat anything the whole day.and was just puking and shitting everything out..i lost 2kg!haha.i missed like almost a day of retreat though..it was really good anyway..had fun..and learnt a lot of stuff..
haha...oh..xavier li gives the best hugs everr..seriously..wahahahaha..he knows it..cause i told him like twice already..they're all thinking of having another longer retreat mid of next year..i'm like 'NOOOOOO!'i won't be around!...and i want to go..i think i'll need it..hahah..aussie people might corrupt my mind..hur..
weeeeeeeeeeeee!!there's like loads of stuff happening next week.partie's.lunch's.dinner's.a wedding.haha..


28days.pisser.

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Monday, December 25, 2006

so i'm at dan's house now.have been since 3am?aloy,christian,jason,vic and myself.yeah.we watched 'How to lose a guy in ten days".oh..the food took such a long time to come.we ordered mac's the minute we came here but it took like an hour and a half lah.anyway,after that i had a short nap.then i watched them play some fifa game.i played 2 games.vic got me hooked on it.

before that went for midnight mass.and wathced the pageant by the youth choir.it was pretty good.anyway,i attended with the stoners.it was cool.haha.then was like just passing cards around and wshing and hugging.then replying messages.haha.thanks for all the wishes people!

after mass,i went over to mike's place hoping that there would be some food left but no.Grace kept it all.but it was all good lah.sean,aaron.leslie,paesan and patrick were there.so i just hang around with them and they walked me down to gardens.

yay!Steamboat with the goons tomorrow!

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Saturday, December 23, 2006

i had four hours of sleep in total today.i turned in at 4am.got up at like 6.then yvelyn and i went to meet sean,aaron and leslie fernandez for breakfast at r.k.why so friggin' early you might ask?because our dear yvelyn had to work at 9am.so yeah.after that i went back home for 2 hours of sleep.and left the house 11.15 and headed off to serangoon station.

iceskating was super fun!..i had a little trouble when i first got on the ice.cause it's been a really really long time since i've skated.so the people who went were lynn.bryan.bong.leslie.cheryl ann.joey.daniel.priss.
i never fell.it was all almost.haha..oh wait..i did fall once.haha.bryan pulled me down by accident.haha.pretty funny.and my hand's were freezing!..
haha.poor bryan.first time skating and everyone was like disturbing him.hahahha.pushing him and whackin his ass all.he got pretty drenched.yep.haha.oh.and daniel ng yiming i will so get you the next time we go skating.joey peng too!always pushing everyone.haha.it was just damn fun lah..haha.
left at 4pm:(reached gardens at like 5.40pm?and i went to meet juls,nicki and mel at sushi tei!haha.i finally had the sashimi salad i was craving for the longest time.it was pretty good.yummy=]we stayed there for an hour.then i went to church.the pagaent was interesting.the little children were simply adorable!and my cousins from perth are back!yay.i love veronica.the cutest girl ever i tell you.

it's christmas eve today!

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yay!yvelyn's at my house now! mailto:nACOUSTIC@CLUBHOME was great!safith and harrison sang well.joey,bong and zach played well.yeah,it was all good.got to know some people mann..actually i've seen them before.so yeah.just spoke to them for abit today.like theresa misso.she's cool.haha.leslie and leon too.ha.
paul twohill was there.haha.just saying.
and the last band that played had no name yet.but they were good!the lead vocalists,charles,sang so well.he can reach even higher than me lah.without going out of tune.dang.
aww..and i met yvelyn's "idiot".they're so sweet together!haha.

tomorrow's a long day for me.a whole day of fun!haha.going iceskating!like finally.with most of the people who went for the gig.probably till like 330pm?then i gotta leave to meet nic,mel and juls at gardens for an early dinner at 430!haha.super early dinner.i know.but its kinda for me lah.oh so if any of the three of you happen to read this later in the morning or afternoon.might be a bit late yarh?then i have to go to church to meet the STONERS to catch the children's liturgy pageant.if i had a choice,i wouldn't go lah.but its cause my sister is in it and my parents are in charge of the whole thing so gotta show support.pffftt.

i seriously felt so sick after i got the message from you that you were at the same place i was.i had no appetite at all.i wasn't ready to see you,least of all with her?..no,just not right...but i needed to go there to check out espirit.cause like adora could help me get fifty percent discount.and i was only free today.so i guess thank goodness for her,i felt comfort.and also seeing lynette and carla.and getting hugs from them was just comforting lah.
i don't know if i ever want to see you..its that drastic i suppose.i dont know how we can still be best friends when i really don't feel comfortable like being alone with you.ever.and i know you may say its just a coincidence that you're out with her.(actually i didn't even ask nor did i need to know,dont know why the hell you told me)anyway,i guess it kinda sickens me still that right after we part you go out with her?and it just so happens the day before too you're out with her?so whatever.i really don't give a fuck what you do.i'm doing fine without you.you dont have to tell me your whereabouts or whatnots.because I REALLY DO NOT CARE!



"forget everything that we have done,
erase me from your memory.
don't call.don't ask about me until the day hell freezes over."

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Thursday, December 21, 2006

God was helping me relax today i think.to take things easy.haha.because it wasn't busy at all today.not many customers.i didn't mind at all.haven't seen Kenny for quite some time:( lol.but..i did see a really cute customer!ha.he had a nice tan.tall and slim.he had awesome hair too.haha.

i was watching laguna beach this afternoon.and guess what the title of the episode was??
=>"it's like break up season"

ha.how comforting huh?alex is such a bastard lah.he breaks up with raquel at the bonfire.and after that he goes around talking to the other girls there and asking for their numbers and whether they were free after the bonfire to hangout.asshole.poor rocky.

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'Here we go.Take a bow.
Because we're over now.
You were not there for me when I needed you and honestly I think I loved you more.
If that's possible I think I loved you more.
It's over now and I can't save you.
Some things are better left unsaid.
And all the promises I made were so stupid.
Maybe we'll be able to be friends.If that's possible.
Two days gone.not alright.Still can't sleep at night.
What is it you don't like?
Are you happy now?I was playing with your head.And I close the door.
I was kidding when I said I love you more.
It's over now.'

It doesn't matter .i can't really carry out my plans anymore.it's all ruined.and i hate you so much for it.i wanted to take you out not to a restaurant.but on a cable car.dinner would have been in there.it's called sky dining.i was looking forward to it so badly you know.was super excited.i thought we could see the city lights together.and it goes through sentosa and harbourfront.so yeah.i thought that maybe we could take in the views.the beach.the stars.ha.but no.its just not possible now.its meant to be romantic.for couples to have a time of their life.to love.now i can only dream of what could have been.

Fuck la!why do i have to fuckin leave?!wait,thats not really the thing is it?i knew like two years back that i would be leaving this fine city.so fuck.i being the sucker for this thing called 'love' got into a relationship when i knew it would hurt this bad when it ends.fuck la.i just didn't think it would end this soon.i'm a fucking idiot la.

i'll just take in a really good friends advice.slowly let go and move on.
but how?when i keep thinking about you.and that everything just won't be the same.
i can't hold your hand if we ever go out.i can't feel the comfort and security of your arms around me in the movies.i can't ever get the taste of your lips.
it's really nice being...erm..what do YOU call it,demoted?yeah.right before christmas.and i guess the present you got for me,which was so expensive that you can't even afford a basic meal,is kind of wasted now..and so i sincerely apologise.

fuck it.i'll just get over it.

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Tuesday, December 19, 2006

weeeeeeeeeeee!the weather's crazy and i'm off today!..haha..work was boring yesterday..there were so few customers..it was probably the rain that chased all of them away..haha..and i had no one to talk to..:(..
oh..sunday was good..haha..it was pretty packed..but its good cos it kept me busy..and i found out what that cute guy's name at sushi tei is.KENNY.we talked!haha.cause we had to dry some of the saucers and utencils together.hah!he asked me if i was local and im like yessss..and he's the first person who thought i looked mature!!hahahha.he was shocked that i was 16.LOL.yeah..well we had a nice chat.
and we do get staff meal..in a way..we eat whatever leftover sushi and stuff there is.but i usually just take chawanmushi and the tempura.hah.
oh and people!eating late is not good for your health.your food won't be digested properly and you'll become fat!!you don't want that to happen rightt...??hah!you think i care if you grow fat and out of shape!?no!!i care because if you people come in to eat late it only means the staff goes home later!and that stinks!like some stupid customer came in at freakin 10 yesterday and ordered a plate of mixed sashimi and took her damn time eating it!i mean usually customers leave by 945 the latest and i get to go home at 1015.but yesterday i left at 1045.god.these people.hahahhaha..

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Sunday, December 17, 2006

kae..so everything's quite fine now...i suppose..hahaha..went to marina square with huishan.had lots of fun with her..we didnt do much.just watched this super freaky jap movie called cinderalla.and then we window shopped.had no money lah.haha.but i guess its not where you are or what you're doing its who you're with.so we like crapped a whole lot.haha.after we get our pay we planned to go shop for presents for our boyfriends.hahaha.yep.then after that i met weisheng at suntec.he had subway.i just watched him eat.haha.wasn't hungry.
today we combined session with l.o.g.it was pretty cool.praise and worship!miss it.was about thanksgiving.then halfway through it,everyone went around hugging everyone.like to say peace and all.bummer he came after that.mann,i dont know how he manages to look so good every week.ha.

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Friday, December 15, 2006

we went to watch eragon yesterday.it was alright.i guess it wasnt as good as lord of the rings and stuff.the impact of the fighting scenes and the evil creatures weren't as big.we went all the way to tampines mall anyway.he needed to collect some stuff for his dad.never been there before.haha.guess cause its too far out and i can find everything else in town?dang.and yesterday was the last day of the espirit sale.really wanted to check it out.wanted to see the christmas lights.will try to check it out next week or so with friends.when do you think they'll take it down?
we had a bit of a fallling out.and sometime during the movie i started to feel upset and irritated.to add to it,he kept asking me if i was tired or sleepy throughout the show.i mean i know he's showing concern but seriously he cant do anything about it can he?just kinda annoyed me..oh and i wore this top which i borrowed from alyssa.it was nice so i thought i'd wear it.when i meet him at the interchange he's like why wear so nice.i said for fun.truth is i just wanted to look good for him.and i thought guys usually like their girlfriends to look decent and fashionable.i was wrong there.he also said some stuff before the show that got me thinking about how different we are.and like i just felt things weren't the same.and it wasn't going as well as i hoped it would.and i wonder to myself is there any point at all in the whole thing if i constantly feel insecure and become unhappy just thinking about it?then there wouldnt be time to enjoy any love or fun,would there?but its really my fault,not fully accepting who he is and comparing him to other guys.always thinking about 'what if he was.....?'.i'm not any better too.so why am i thinking so much?he wants me to be open and he's always asking me about what i'm thinking about.its hard to say,because there's always a lot of things going through my mind.'life,friends,my leaving,him,the past,the present,the future'its nice to keep some thoughts to yourself too.and there are times when i feel he isn't entirely open with me too.so i think,why should i be?maybe i should pen my feelings down.write him a letter you know.maybe..
i'm lost.confused.best friends was great.thought if we got together it would be much better..but i guess i was wrong.what do i do now?

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Wednesday, December 13, 2006

audio rojak was fun.i went there like 3 hours late though.got there right on time to catch caracal.i would have gotten there earlier if my mom sent me.but got into an argument with her that afternoon,so she was like,'You can go and find your own there!!'haha.so yeah.i did.along with vic,aloysius,jasmine and benedict.
well,it was great!!haha.it was nice seeing familiar faces everywhere.and meeting people i havent seen for a really long time like marisse and benedict nerva.
i stood right in the front while trella and sod played.was pretty happy i knew a few songs that they played..its nice singing to it out loud.cause you dont have to worry bout goin out of tune or what not as the music's so loud it drowns your voice.

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Sunday, December 10, 2006

i cannot believe i've worked three days already.its so fast..it has been pretty fun.the people there are friendly.oh..and i saw a cute guy today!haha.around twenty i suppose.chinese.didn't get his name cause he wasn't wearing a bloody name tag.oh well.then this guy kenny.always giving me this cheeky smile.and telling me some lame stuff.he asked me how to spell'thousand dollars'.haha.he wasn't being funny or anything.he really didn't know how to spell it.he talks to me in english but i can tell he has difficulties and stuff.but good for him i am the minority who's 'english english' and can't speak or understand mandarin that well.all of the other staff members seem to only converse in chinese.dang.i think i need to brush up on my chinese.seriously.haha. oh and one guy asked me if i was english or chinese!lol.i was like chinese.then he was like cause you don't look like one.hmmm..so is that supposed to be a compliment or an insult?heh.
working at sushi tei really is similar to pizza hut.here,we refill green tea or water.while over there we just refill water.haha.and at the end of the day,everyone is assigned certain jobs.like at pizza hut,you clear tables or refill the cheese and chilli flake shakers.while at sushi tei,you clean the counter and refill the shoyu(soya sauce)and ginger.
and the best thing is i give the manager my schedule.not the other way round.so yeah!i can go to the gig!!haha.
one month seventeen days.

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Saturday, December 9, 2006

oh yeah.i can finally put the flyer on my blog.there was some problem with blogger.anyway,this is a must see gig!!so be there.the bands playing totally rock!
let me know if you want the tickets than i'll get it from one of the bands.hur.

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Friday, December 8, 2006

okay.so it was first day of work for me!haha.i don't know why..but i was like nervous about it.haha.but it turned out to be quite alright.just clear tables and serve green tea.haha.the thing i was quite annoyed was the older staff peolple didnt like bother instructing me about what i was supposed to do.thank goodness,my ex-school mate,jinghan,was there!
i ended at like 1030pm.planned to go to cherylann's chalet after.but i was quite tired.and like the thought of travelling all the way to pasir ris just didnt seem right.the thing i'm bummed about is i can't even go for the bbq tomorrow!i'm friggin' working!and i really hope i can make it for the audiorojak.i'm crossing my fingers that i dont have to work that night.if i have to,i'll try my best to ask them to change the shift or something.quite scared about that though.being that i'm new and all.BUT I REALLY REALLY WANNA GO FOR THE GIG!!
i can finally meet my baby tomorrow.yay for me.hahahha!

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Tuesday, December 5, 2006

just came back from watchin pieces of jade.a production by my school's drama club.and the st. gab's drama club too.i didnt quite get it.haha.but the actor's and actresses were good.there were a couple of funny scenes.i was quite bummed that adora ,nat and sarah couldn't make it..pretty wasted like they paid for the ticket and all already.and i haven't seen them for quite some time either.
stacy highlighted the some colour as me!haha.how cool.
it has only been a day and i'm missing him so much already!how am i gonna do it for five years??knowing that he'll probably meet someone new.it's just something i gotta face huh?

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Sunday, December 3, 2006

i've gotten myself into a pile of shit.will she ever trust me again??

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Friday, December 1, 2006

i've got the job at sushi tei down gardens!!!so friggin' relieved mann..firstly i don't have to worry about going for more job hunting.secondly,it's just down gardens!i can just talk a 5 min bus ride down or i can just walk down..how fun.haha.yay for me!
i didn't do much today.but the fun came at 530pm?..haha.because that is when i met with the few STONERS.daniel.aloysius.jason.victoria-kew.xavier.ally joined us shortly after at mac's.we discussed about the retreat.yep.then we went to the triduum.jaclyn came.then vic left.haha.we all had to pair up and do some stuff for the mass.like stick some poster on a board.i was supposed to do with aloy at first.but i'm like crazy sia.do you know the height difference?!the poster will be slanted la.so i paired up with dan.no choice.anyway,even though we just hang out and like go for mass together,i have fun.and i really enjoy the time spent.i'll miss this kind of small gatherings.we went to coffee bean after.for supper?yeap.i just had a pure chocalate.thats the only thing i drink there.but i told ally ,be prepared.cause one day when it rains i'll call her up to accompany me for a cup of hot chocolate.haha.my family went to the market for supper.christian was there.he messaged me and asked why i didnt follow them.and i was like the rest didnt wanna go.and i asked if he wanted to join us.he didnt reply.when we left though.he came.daniel ng was super mean.he pulled down christian's shorts la.the whole thing didnt come down.but like a bit of his boxers or what not could be seen.he was pissed.who wouldnt be?but i'm really sorry christian for rubbing it in.please dont be mad.
so anyway.i'll be going to vivocity with ally.to watch open season!haha.she got a pair of free tickets.so yeah.i feel really really touched anyway that she chose me to go.means a lot.i love you babe!!i heard the movie is quite good.haha.so yeah.a good day ahead.yay!

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