Friday, June 26, 2009
It's been 5 days since I've been back. At times, I feel right at home as if I never left. Other times, I feel like I don't belong anymore.
Yes, I might not have many friends in Perth. But hey I've still got friends. And anyway I feel like I don't have much reason in coming back anymore. I think people are tired of seeing me come and go. And there are some who I thought were closest to me who are being totally weird. I am becoming quite used to the laidback lifestyle in downunder as well.
And another reason why I don't want to stay as long in Singapore anymore is all I do is bum around and spend money when I could be earning quite a bit back there. And everyone's busy with their own stuff, I don't expect them to make time for me. Everyone's moving on, while I feel so outdated in their lives. The people I thought I'd be most comfortable with, now it's just different. Why do things have to fucking change? Whatever I wrote on June 2nd seems like bull to me.
I feel wrong being back home. If I can still call it that.
2:32 AM
Breaking the Habit!
Saturday, June 20, 2009
I promise I won't screw it up again.
We haven't known each other for long. But you get to me so much.
I want to make this work. I don't want to lose you as a friend. Not now or ever.
Our friendship is only beginning. And I'd like to see it go far and strong. Well, hopefully.
I promise I won't get you annoyed at me being annoyed at you that you say things like 'you're sick of it' or hear your voice so cold over the phone. It hurts me so bad but I guess I deserve it.
I made a promise that we won't end up like you and her. And I will keep to that.
This proves how I'm not too good for you.
And you are near fucking good enough(: the best.
ily J. x
12:19 AM
Breaking the Habit!
Sunday, June 7, 2009
It's exactly 2 weeks and about 8 hours to my flight home.
It hasn't sunk in yet. I guess cause I'm not sure how I feel about it. I guess I am happy to get back to catch up with people and get hugs from my loves. But I'm not overly excited as I would be. No offence friends,you know I love you. There's just a number of people who I would have liked to hang out with here in perth during the coming holidays. One in particular who I don't want to be too far away from at this point in time but what can I do. One month doesn't change much, do you think? Well, I sure hope not.
I wish you knew but I can't. Not now. Or maybe ever.
Well, gots to gets back to studying. Everyone's stressing over it. Am I the only one who isn't? I'm just not. haha. weird.
1:41 PM
Breaking the Habit!
Tuesday, June 2, 2009
I've probably said this in every post but how scary it is that time passes so damn fast?
And not only that but how sad is it that people change as time passes?how I change as well.
And how people just come and go in your life. Well, there are the ones you know will be with you forever. But then there are the passerbys. the ones you're close to for a period of time and then for some reason, like you probably lose touch with them. and you just stop talking.
I totally forgot about Friendster but got reminded of it by jeeves.and i was just reading through my comments over the past 2 years. some bringing back happy memories. some were just made me pretty emotional. especially ones from you. i really miss you and i hope you're watching over all of us(: heh. the others that were sad was cause you look back and you cant imagine you were that close you were to that person cause now you don't even talk at all. and it wasn't because of a fallout. but i guess you go different ways and then you just have nothing in common.
I believe that everything happens for a reason but why?It sucks.
I'm one who likes to make friends and keep my friends close. But like alyssa said some are meant to stick with you,others just aren't. so i guess there's nothing i can do hey? Memories is all you can have i guess. and just remembering how much fun it was with them. and this might be cheesy but i feel thankful that i had that chance to be friends with them. They'll always be in my heart,never forgotten. I'll always love them.
But then as people come and go,you just meet new people and there's others who stay and you end up becoming such great friends with. talking about anything under the sun. there's some who just over a year ago i wasn't talking much to.but one holiday changes a lot of things. And now I can't imagine not having them in my life.now and in the future. and of course there's the ones who i've known forever and its because of them i am who i am.and i cannot imagine living without them.at all.and there's some who i've gotten to know recently and i really wish those friendships would grow and last. geez i feel like such a kid but thats just how i feel(:
12:48 AM
Breaking the Habit!