Friday, December 28, 2007
i'm sorry i haven't updated for like more than 2 weeks.but i guess the main reason why i do blog is to let my singaporean homies know whats happening in my life in perth.so while i'm down here i don't see a point cause it usually involves them.
anyway it's been freaking awesome lah!i don't ever wanna leave but i know i have to!shit.if i stayed, alot of things would be different.i swear.maybe better.i don't know.
everyone's telling me how jealous they are of me being able to study in australia.like i am totally grateful but i really rather be back home you know.my parents say i can decide on where i wanna stay until after Uni.but thats another 4 years lah fuck.
its ages.and i'm scared i'll change my mind.like i kinda did during the year.but it's still too soon to say.so who knows.
okay,i'll try not to think about it at the moment and just enjoy myself here while i can.i have been enjoying myself a lot.and it's like nothing really changed between my friends and i which is awesome. and i'm so glad that people are more open to each other and more willing to make friends.i guess it's because we're older and much more mature. i seriously have met so many people during the last 2 weeks which is fantastic because i really really enjoy meeting new people.i love it. it means connections and understanding different kinds of people.haha.yay.
5:11 PM
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Wednesday, December 12, 2007
two more days.
just gotta get through tomorrow which i think will be passing
quite fast because I'm going shopping and the movies?And then
it's Friday everybody. The day that I'm flying back to my mother
land and seeing my very awesome friends!:D
why aren't you replying??How bout like today huh.
8:37 PM
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Monday, December 10, 2007
I passed my L's theory test!30/30.woohoo!But it was hell easy aye, just needed to practice online, so not much of a biggie. Most of my friends are learning how to drive already. I can't believe I actually got it done, I've been putting it off for the longest time. meh, I can officially learn how to drive!oh yeah!
bad thing is I can only start practicing when I get back, that's 2 months later!mann.
Did a Mcdonald's party today. It went pretty well, there were only 8 kids!hahaha. And pretty cute , enthusiastic ones so it made it easy for me.
And I had to train this guy from china, he's like 20 but he looked so young like my age. And he wasn't very tall, was pretty hard to converse with him. Thank god, he didn't try speaking mandarin to me. I'd be like, ' WHAAAT?'
4 DAYS :D
8:41 PM
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Saturday, December 8, 2007
Did some spring cleaning today. Have it all tidied up for the inspection of the house on Tuesday and clean before we fly off for our super long holiday on Friday:D
How did the name 'spring cleaning' come about anyway? Like did that person who made it up decide that spring was just the right time to clean the house? Shouldn't it be a year round chore?
What happens in Singapore then when there are no seasons. What should they call it? Or maybe the word spring just has a different meaning. Is what I did today even called spring cleaning?
haha.okay.now I'm just talking shit.
So it's like 3.15pm here now aye. I'm thinking that during this time next week, I would probably at the church retreat. How holy. This would be the last Saturday I'm spending here for the year. This would be the last Saturday I'm working at Macca's till next year. Real awesome shit cause that's usually the busiest day of the week.
5.35pm on the 14th December.
2:03 PM
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Friday, December 7, 2007
I've been having really awkward dreams lately. Can they even be called dreams if it didn't help you sleep peacefully? I don't know, that's my idea of what dreams are. That they're sweet and you get through the night without a problem.
The one's I've been having make me toss and turn so much. And I just feel irritated and upset, I have no idea what over but I just am. Is it alright to feel that way? Bothered by nothing? I just feel that there's just something but i can't figure out what exactly.
I'm seriously sounding crazy.haha.
So anyway, my 'dreams', isn't a complete thing, it's just flashes here and there. Like short stories. And it somewhat involves the friends I have in Singapore and the ones in Perth. Like everybody in this huge world is connected some way or other.
I don't know why I'm having these. Paranoid over something? Afraid of the future? Yes, that I'm pretty afraid of cause you never know whats gonna come at you. And nothing ever goes as plan.
I really like Angel's Serenade. It's the most beautiful song ever , really touching and sad. I want it to be played at my funeral which i pray will be in another say 70 years time. lol.
WORK.joy.
12:50 PM
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Thursday, December 6, 2007
Retail therapy today was goooooooood. HARBOUR TOWN!
got what I've been looking for a long time.summer dresses!like 3 of them. And a black vest!quite a lot of places have that.like it isn't hard to find.but just the right price.most costs like 30,40.50 bucks.the one i found was 20!which i thought was really good.mum reckons its a good bargain too.yeah, so i got it!
I got this like metallic V-neck blouse for new year's.definitely getting a party dress thing for christmas,just haven't found the right one.more shopping for it next week!
yeah, i think I'm spending way too much money.might need a temp job when I'm back in Singapore.
Since coming here, I've kinda learnt how to be more confident in myself. especially my body.yerrp. Like every where I go here, people just wear whatever they want. They don't care if it's too revealing or if it may be too tight and shit. They just wear what they like and feel comfortable in. So yeah, I'd never thought I'd see the day when I would be wearing anything sleeveless because I hate my arms. But all the summer dresses I got are strappy kinda thing. I've decided that I shouldn't give a fuck about what people think or say about me. Yes, because they should accept me for who I am and not what I look like. I should accept myself and the fact that nobody is perfect. And just be myself. Love myself :)
Most of all enjoy my life without always worrying about what other people's thoughts are.
That is Pamela Tan's motto ya'll.
peace out.
9:39 PM
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Aly, you were so right about the ending of season 3 of ''The 'L' word". It was so sad!yeap, I spent the whole of today watching it.with my mother.and my sister. It was seriously awkward but i couldn't get it working on the computer. So i didn't really have a choice to watch it on the plasma tv cause we only had one dvd player.yes, that is even more tragic than the ending.haha.
you know i'm kidding.haha.
But it kind of got me thinking. How's it like to lose someone really close to you? I really can't imagine that. Like yeah I've lost my grandparents on my mum's side, but i wasn't really close to them. Yet I felt so much pain and you try to think of memories you've had with them. And every now and then it just comes up.
So losing say,a close friend( touch wood,but shit happens) ,it'd be so much worse. Knowing that you won't ever see them again or like be able to confide in them. And you'll probably think about the times you've spent together.good and bad. and you just wish that you could even have a bad time with them right then than have them gone forever. I don't know, I just think I wouldn't be able to cope with it. I'd just cry my heart out for days and weeks and not be able to accept the fact.
To me, some movies or like shows help you to explain the problems or happenings going on in my life. Like I watch it and then I think to myself ," That could probably be a reason why......." or " No wonder."haha.yeah. For those who did watch the series, you know how Alice and Lara hooked up after Dana's death. My mum reckons it was a way to overcome their grief because they were both close to Dana. And like it was a kinda rash action, you get my drift?
And I guess I'm just saying I did really foolish things when I was upset before especially when my grandma passed away. I was pretty messed up and really wasn't thinking about the consequence and all.
But that's the past and yeah. We learn from our mistakes. Awesome.
12:28 AM
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Sunday, December 2, 2007
matt's party was interesting.haha. like even though it wasn't as wild and not many people were there than the last one,i enjoyed it much more than the previous one.i guess it's cause now i know so many more people and i kind of had a bit more courage to speak to people. the last time i was pretty shy and all i had was pris and she was freaking acting pissed so that didn't help very much.
got to know a few more people, spoke to some random but cute guys there.haha.
i wished i never drank.puked once at the party.got back at like midnight.puked again.from then till 7 in the morning,had to go to the toilet once every hour.haha.so of course my sleep was freaking disrupted.haha.mum's so sweet, she gave me a tablet and let me sleep in.and they all went for mass and met up with my cousins for lunch. this is probably the first time i missed mass for a very lame excuse.haha.
i really can't believe I'm coming back in less than 2 weeks.tell you the truth i'm really not as excited as i used to be.have i mentioned that?like i really can't wait to see all my friends back home and do the things i miss most.but then now i have a life here.and i will definitely miss my friends here.i didn't think i could get so attached to people within these 9 months or so I've been here.but yeah, i have. and i was so excited about staying 2 months back in Singapore.but now i feel that's ages. then i feel bad, cause i've been away from Singapore for so bloody long. and so 2 months is really little compared to like a whole year here. so i really should just see it as a good thing right??like staying for 2 months and making the best of it.
oh my god. this sucks.
i just can't wait till after this Sunday.honestly.i'm such a sucker for guys who are such sweet talkers.can't wait to go to the movies with him.wonder if he genuinely likes me. i wish i could have more time to spend with him and get to know him better over the holidays. then at least things would be more comfortable at the ball. urghh..what to do.
10:35 PM
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