Monday, October 6, 2008

hello world, it is the morning of my first mock exam paper.
I.am.doomed.

anyway,yesterday my dad was talking about going back for good. I think it was because of something my mum said. And my head went straight up and I was like,'Yes!can we please go back forever!' Then mum was like,' So you don't wanna go Curtin anymore?' and dad was like,' What?you wanna go back to do poly?' I know I just have 3 more years to get through but its still so long. I don't know why dad didn't foresee earlier how miserable all of us are. My mum's sick and tired of not having him around everyday. And I thought I was the only one counting down till when I got back but even my siblings are. Like both their msn nicks had 68 included in it. I mean yeah all of us have friends here but its really not the same. We are all dying to get out of here as soon as possible! And I don't know,it got me thinking that if we stayed back in Singapore ,the money that we've been spending on the flights back could have been used for some other things.haha.opportunity cost.
And it also got me thinking about the options I had. Poly was definitely out because I'd have wasted these 2 years. And I was so not going to do another 3. Anyway I heard of people transferring Uni's. So I was thinking maybe I do like a year in Curtin and then get a transfer or something to one of the Uni's in Singapore. I don't know how that works though. Another option I have is not go to Curtin and go to UWA instead. Because there they have some exchange programme and NUS is one of schools they do it with. But then again I don't know how that works,whether it's difficult to get into the programme or the criteria you know. Yes, it may sound silly that I could be exchange student anywhere else in the world, I wanna go back to Singapore. But I didn't see the point when I was going to be there alone and I'd be even more homesick. No family and friends at all with me.
I really had my heart set on Curtin though.
urghh.I don't know.
And I also realised that Leslie and Chantal both went to Melbourne(somewhere that has so much more life than Perth and somewhere I'd so rather be than Perth) and like after 2 years they went back to Singapore. Now having the time of their life.



Someone please take me away.

Breaking the Habit!