Thursday, June 5, 2008

2 exams down, 3 more to go. Discrete Math's tomorrow, it's quite a relief from all those other theory exams. We're really lucky here though, we get to bring in 4 pages of notes in for the Math exam. If only that could happen in Singapore, would have saved all of us the trouble memorizing those freaking formulas. Bloody hell.

Andrew,that lucky numbskull, is flying back home in a week's time for his confirmation camp. It struck me yesterday about the affirmation letter we got to read from our parents during the second day of camp or something. And I remembered how during my year 12 retreat, Sarah not only got a letter from each of her parents and Colin but also from her older brother. And I thought,' Wow, how sweet of him. I would be so touched if my brother did that.' So I decided to write Andrew one. It's like 2 pages long.haha. It's funny that I got quite emotional writing it. I was tearing while I wrote this, 'I love you, Paulina and Ashley so very much,even though my actions may seem otherwise. I really do.' And I just broke down. I guess it was out of guilt, like I mentioned earlier in the letter,'I'm sorry I haven't been a good role model to you and Paulina and I'm sorry for not being the best big sister around.' Like I felt bad for taking advantage of this great family that I have and that some of the things I've done have been so inconsiderate and insensitive. I felt kind of upset too, cause it made me remember how they sometimes say to me,' Why can't you be kind and caring for once?' I usually ignored it but I guess it just only got to me,so there was that element of hurt because I do try.And it made me to realise how much I really loved my siblings and to treasure them. It makes me want to be a better sister, to stop being mean and always look out for them. Well, I hope he likes the letter anyway.

Sex and the City with Mummy tomorrow!

Breaking the Habit!