Wednesday, April 9, 2008
Ashley came back last night!haha. I was actually looking forward to it surprisingly. It's kinda sad that he's going to be away for so long, to National Service. But it's good too, he can buffen up!hahah.
Just 2 more days of school yo. But I've got 3 tests over that period. I cannot wait for the holidays, I am so tired of school. I've already got stuff planned for it!haha. Probably paintballing with Christina and Sarah L. next week. Then dinner gathering at my place with Cham, Sarah K. , Dylan and all. Beach with Neesha and Steph. Freo Prison with Ashleigh, Juls and Steven(hmmm, not too sure bout that one), movies and Daddy's coming in the second week so we'll probably drive down south for a day or 2. And!! Perth Zoo!!!hahaha.
You know how i said in one of the previous posts that i was sure i like him? I think now, it could be one of my silly crushes. And I'm pretty sure he doesn't like me in that way. But I'm happy with being good friends with him. He's becoming pretty popular with his band, inside and outside of school, so I'm pretty sure he'll meet like other hot girls. Ashleigh was making fun of him saying he's like shallow and he didn't deny that. oh well.
I've decided that I'm going to get braces and pay for it myself. I know it's pretty expensive but I'll just work like 4 times a week i guess. Hopefully I can pay by like weekly or monthly installments. I can't wait anymore. I've waited long enough. I've been asking my parents for it but they always try to avoid talking about it. I've tried explaining to them how so many people I know got them and they look so much better now. They just think I'm being vain.
I'm sorry I care so much about what other people think. But doesn't everyone? I can't help but feel that people always stare at my teeth. I hate it. And quite a few people have made comments about it and I'm sick of it. Like they ask me,' Have you thought about getting braces?' oh what the fuck do you think. And everytime I look through CLEO or some other magazine, people's smiles are the first thing I look at. And they are all perfect. Straight white teeth. And I always look forward to the day I get to have those. Okay, so my freakin annoying crooked teeth isn't very obvious in pictures.so what? Do people look at my picture when they're talking to me? I don't think so.
Like in Singapore, they'd say through the government is cheaper but the wait is gonna be long. Private was too expensive. My Dad then said oh I could do it when we move to Australia cause we can have it subsidized. What he didn't know was that when you applied for the Medibank scheme thing you had to wait a year till you get the benefits. And well we haven't applied for it yet and I'm so not waiting a year. It's just something that bothers me every single day. Like I think to myself should I smile or should I not. Yeah, I'm just whinging now. I shall stop and do something about it.
9:18 PM
Breaking the Habit!