Friday, March 21, 2008
i am sick of being treated like a child. like we have freakin passwords to get on the computer. and of all people paulina's knows it. and like andrew and i have to ask her to log onto the computer for us.like wtf. i was soooo annoyed about it today i just started going off. and then my mum decides to tell us the password.i mean does it take one of us to get mad before they tell us what the password is? god they know we're not capable of checkin out porn sites.thats just disgusting. i just use it for msn man.
yeah anyway on a brighter note. i am pretty sure that i like him. but i've never gotten what i wanted.like in terms of boys. the guys ive gone out with told me they liked me first. ive never told a guy i liked him and had it actually work. guess i'm afraid of rejection and im never sure of myself. and im also afraid that the friendship would never be the same.that it'd be weird.
i don't know if i should tell him how i feel. i really like how things are between us now.should i just be happy with it?
but i really miss being in a relationship. quite a few people i know are in one. and its sweet. i miss getting cuddles from the guy you love. and sweet kisses on the lips or forehead. i miss having a guy's arm around my waist and the feeling that he'll never let go. and just knowing you've got someone there for you.there's just heaps of things i miss luh.
i don't know what to do. i'm calling alyssa tonight. for help!hhaha.
7:52 PM
Breaking the Habit!