Thursday, December 21, 2006
'Here we go.Take a bow.
Because we're over now.
You were not there for me when I needed you and honestly I think I loved you more.
If that's possible I think I loved you more.
It's over now and I can't save you.
Some things are better left unsaid.
And all the promises I made were so stupid.
Maybe we'll be able to be friends.If that's possible.
Two days gone.not alright.Still can't sleep at night.
What is it you don't like?
Are you happy now?I was playing with your head.And I close the door.
I was kidding when I said I love you more.
It's over now.'
It doesn't matter .i can't really carry out my plans anymore.it's all ruined.and i hate you so much for it.i wanted to take you out not to a restaurant.but on a cable car.dinner would have been in there.it's called sky dining.i was looking forward to it so badly you know.was super excited.i thought we could see the city lights together.and it goes through sentosa and harbourfront.so yeah.i thought that maybe we could take in the views.the beach.the stars.ha.but no.its just not possible now.its meant to be romantic.for couples to have a time of their life.to love.now i can only dream of what could have been.
Fuck la!why do i have to fuckin leave?!wait,thats not really the thing is it?i knew like two years back that i would be leaving this fine city.so fuck.i being the sucker for this thing called 'love' got into a relationship when i knew it would hurt this bad when it ends.fuck la.i just didn't think it would end this soon.i'm a fucking idiot la.
i'll just take in a really good friends advice.slowly let go and move on.
but how?when i keep thinking about you.and that everything just won't be the same.
i can't hold your hand if we ever go out.i can't feel the comfort and security of your arms around me in the movies.i can't ever get the taste of your lips.
it's really nice being...erm..what do YOU call it,demoted?yeah.right before christmas.and i guess the present you got for me,which was so expensive that you can't even afford a basic meal,is kind of wasted now..and so i sincerely apologise.
fuck it.i'll just get over it.
10:39 AM
Breaking the Habit!